Sunday, April 09, 2017

Grief struck on facebook

4/8/2017... I was jet lagged, woke up at weird hours and started browsing my Facebook feed casually. I was making a vain attempt trying to find some humor in the memes, trying to scroll through the political rants and enjoying some of the amusing pictures and stories that a few friends shared.

As I was feeding my instant gratification monkey, ignoring the real work I had to attend to, something struck me quite deeply.

It was a quote that someone had shared.
"Grief I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go." 

Suddenly, I felt the melancholy set in... a heaviness for no apparent reason. Exactly not the plan when I opened up my Facebook page. But.. Hey! 

My mind started wandering through several incidents that left me grieving for days, weeks and months. The incomplete conversations, the moments that show that life is way shorter than what we think it is and the deep bruises left by life's own plans... 

Predominantly loaded with thoughts of my dad, cherishing the memories of time spent together, futility of the meaningless dad-son fights, and the way things changed once and for all with no notice. 

Unlike the people that stay in someone's life for a season or a reason, some relations are for a lifetime. Grief that goes along with it is also for a lifetime... Lifetime of love that you cannot give!